to my mama

I just want to let you know
What is on my mind.
You know that I love you so.
You are one of a kind.

In my heart, there's a special place
Where all of your love lives.
Everything's in a special case
And all my love to you I give.

It hurts me when I see you cry,
Makes my tears come running down.
And I always know the reason why
I can see it in your frown.

When, late at night, you're asleep in bed
And I'm still wide awake.
I creep in your room and kiss your head
For the sweet dreams it will make.

Don't look back in the past
Or listen to the bad things I say.
For they are untrue, I regret them fast
I love you more each and every day.

I wish I could kiss away your pain
And dry your lonesome tears.
If I could, I'd stop your unwanted rain
And scare away your fears.

No words can explain how I feel.
I can never thank you enough.
For all the love and pain you've healed
When all my times got tough.

I wrote this poem as I sat
Thinking of my Mama, so true.
In rough times, always remember that
Mama, I Love You!!!

Life isn't easy

I walk into my school. Everybody smiles to me, and they expect me to smile back. They think I’m such a happy girl and have no problems. What they don’t know, is that behind every smile there is something inside me that just wants to break down and cry. I’m actually not a happy girl and I do have a lot of problems. But when did all this pain start? When did my life became the saddest life a person ever can have?
Let me tell you about the first day at high school, and my eyes catches a girl sitting on the corner far away from me. I thought I would be so happy if  I end up in the same class as her, and I did. We became very good friends, and after few months we started to flirt and everything. I got feelings for her and I was so sure about that she also felt the same for me. My feelings for her only got stronger and stronger, I was in love. At the end I just had to ask her, if  she also felt the same way about me. I wish I could go back to yesterday when everything was so much better and I still had her by me side. The answer from her was “I don’t feel the same way about you, I was just having fun with you, but not more then that”.
Today she doesn’t even speak to me or look at me, and now I wish I never was in the same class as her. It looks like I don’t exist longer. I lost something very important that day, but I have also lost a lot of my friends and my school degrees are just going down. I basically have no reasons to live anymore. What is the point of living, when everyday is just a day with pain and nothing more? I wish some one could answer that question!

The way life is

The way life is

It makes u cry, it makes u wanna die,it makes u wanna runaway
all it brings is so much pain it brings depression and it teaches u a
lesson youll never forget it make u remeber wat its like 2 be u it will
change u and show u many things... sometimes the positive side of u
will vanish and never come back u will not regain urself back 2 the
way u were and you'll miss the old u then when everything goes
BLANK... You'll reliaze ur dead and wish you'd enjoyed life make the
best of it while u could have and died in a more peacefull matter rather
than regreting everything u could've had....
" TRY NEVER TO LOOSE HOPE"...