#23:- Locked in the past.

Life goes on... Whether you choose to move on and take a chance in the unknown. Or stay behind, locked in the past, thinking of what could've been.

Sometimes when we are trying to act as though we have moved on from a situation, a person, ill feelings, or an event in our past we refuse to believe that we really still care. It is very important to note that when you are still willing to talk about something, especially if it is in a negative connotation, then chances are that you still care about it in some fashion deep down. In order to truly be over something in their past they must gather no feelings or sentiments when they think about it, or talk about it.

In order to move on from something of his or her past one has to change his way of thinking, and his or her actions when the subject matter seems to come up in their lives. In other words, dont speak negatively of things or people of your past, when you think about them wish them well, and then think about how great your life is now, and how great the people and things in your life at this point are helping to make it this way. Live your life looking and moving forward, instead of looking backwards and standing still.

I'm done.

  “If pain must come, may it come quickly. Because I have a life to live, and I need to live it in the best way possible. If he has to make a choice, may he make it now. Then I will either wait for him or forget him.” 

It's already September?! It's amazing how fast time flies by and you don't even realize it. Just within 9 months I have experienced lots of 'bullshit' can't wait till the end of the year, I wonder how life will surprise me.
Life is too short to just focus on the hurtful, heartbreaking, mental breakdown times, and instead I should live life to the fullest. No matter how life knock me down, I will keep my head high, chin up. 

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I really miss you but I think I'm done waiting. You have no idea how long I have been waiting for you, I feel like a fool. All I want is talk, just normal talk, just talk not like you sit in front of me and ask what's wrong, you barely looking at me and you said hurry up cuz you got some shit to do. Every day how I wish to bumped into you, even just for a sec it will definitely make my day. But for now, I'm done..just done.

#22:- TRUST

If someone hurts you, betrays you, or breaks your heart forgive them, for they have helped you learn about trust and the importance of being cautious when you open your heart.

In life there is a lesson to be learned in all of your victories and all of your defeats. Don't let things like failed relationships bring you down or stop you from ever wanting to trust another human being again. Forgive those who have abused your trust, those who are supposed to be with you but act as if they are against you, those who have been willing to not only break your heart, but willing to betray you as well. These are the people who have helped you the most, because these are the people who have taught you who and how to trust, when to be cautious, warning signs of someone who is becoming untrustworthy, and ultimately they have helped you to determine in the future who to open your heart to, and who not to as well. One thing that is easy to do in this world is run from new challenges, and run from new relationships in an effort to preserve us from damage. In actuality this often causes more heartache because the weights of dealing with loneliness, especially when dealing with the stress that life produces will weigh on a single person heavily.Start trusting. Of course it is always necessary to use your instincts to help prevent yourself from harmful situations, but you must be willing to keep a positive mindset when it comes to interacting with new friends. Just be willing to keep an open mind and you will find that life has so much more depth than you maybe once thought.
Live your life, don't let the feelings of hurt and pain live your life for you, use your wisdom from your experiences but never let them hold you back from seeing greatness. 

MAY : All in one :) :(

Welcome May! haha dh hjung bulan bru nk welcome.. biasa lah agak busy dgn final smpai lupa tarikh :p I believe this is my second entry this year about ME. eh ye ke... hentam je la.. so within this 5 months byk bnde yg aku blajar.. byk bnde yg x sngka akn jd.. happy, sad, frust..sumenye cmpur skali..huhu.. tak nak lah pjg2 nk cite psal sad2 story nk cite yg happy2 je...

So, after a year (myb) someone yg aku xpnh putus harapan tggu, mimpi siang malam, cewaah.. akhirnya msg kt fb, walaupun stakat kata "happy birthday" ia sgt bermakna..haha. U tau x I tggu u pnye lame..mne U pg? huhu. Well, actually x blh nk blame dia 100% coz it's my fault .. the last time aku msg dia aku yg kata jgn cari aku lg..so dia bt apa yg disuruh je. haha at least dia ingt jgk birthday aku.. pnye excited dpt msg tu smpai nk mkn pn x lalu dh..mle2 nk bt la jual mahal tp x blh la.. I rindu U sgt2..I ingt U dh kahwin :p haha. ok3.enough. xD. Dari msg "happy birthday" tu smpai skrg x putus msg, bgaikan msg tu makanan harian...msti msg jgk2.. dari Good Morning smpai lah Good Night x jemu2... hehe..weekend je msti keluar tgk wyg, jejalan buang ms lepas rindu gitu. haha. If you read this, I just wanna let you know that I love you so much, please don't leave.. :(.
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Before I end this entry, awak(you know who).. please forgive me all things that I've done to you. apa yg I bt tu mmg x ptt and I keep blaming you for everything when I know It's my fault maybe I tak bersedia nk serious with anyone yet, I hope you understand.. Never meant to break your heart I'm not that 'kind' of girl if you know what I mean . Thank you for coming into my life and giving me joy, thank you for loving me and receiving my love in return. Thank you for the memories I will cherish forever.  I know how it feels but in time your heart will heal and you`ll move on. I hope you find someone better than me, deserve you, treat you right.This is goodbye.

#21:- Don't you forget this is your dream.

Devote yourself to an idea. Go make it happen. Struggle on it. Overcome your fears. Smile. Don't you forget: this is your dream.

Being consistent conquers devoting yourself to an idea or dream. When you fail, keep trying. When you feel pain, keep going. When you are fearful, keep progressing forward.

 Remember, life isn't just about dreaming, living your life is about taking steps each day, and each moment you have a chance to, to go after your dreams. There is going to be struggle. 

There is going to be opposition. There will be people who come against you, and tell you that you can't do the things that you have your heart set upon! Pay them no mind, they only have something to say because they are much too fearful to go after their own dreams. 

Never forget to keep smiling, let everyone see you as happy on the outside as you are on the inside, because you are one of the few who is bold enough to go after your dreams.

Work hard daily, and continue to stay focused on obtaining the life that you want for you and the people who matter most to you.

*you were right, maybe this is the right thing to do. I should support you not against.*

2014!!!! it's all about me me me me me! :D

So, today i taknak speaking london lah..i nk ckp bahasa ibunda..waah. hehe.. pejam celik,pejam celik dh masuk bulan 2(FEB) tahun 2014 cepat masa berlalu rs mcm smlm bru celebrate new year, kononya la kan padahal celebrate new year dlm mimpi je.haha. 2014 ni i nk mulakan hidup baru, semuanya baru2 lah kan and guess what, i dh masuk kolej! dekat dgn rumah plk tu lg syok...so far so good la kt kolej tu dapat ramai kawan..kawan2 plk semuanya best2 takde yg sombong tp ade la 2 3 org tu ntah pape je.haha x kesah la..asalkan dia tak kacau hidup i.. Lg.....i dapat buah hati kt sne..eh...opps! haha..Setelah sekian lama kne bleter dgn ibu akhirnya ank ksygan dh continue study...cewaahh..first day at college mmg nervous sbb takut takde mmbr mcm2 feeling la rasa pastu ada satu mamat ni msuk kelas srious aku takut tgk dia sbb badan dia 'tough' pkai plk bju fit nk bertentang mata pon seram.haha tp sebenarnya dia baik tgk je mcm garang tp hati lembut..i repeat hati lembut bukan dia lembut.. memandangkan dh msuk topik mamat 'tough' ni...ehem.. dia lah buah hati i.. haha ♥☺ Nama dia mula dgn huruf S,korang tak pyh la tahu full name dia tak famous pn.. google pon takkan ada. hehe. So, first time jumpa/sembang ms bt study group, hri tu lah dri mata jatuh ke hati..i tak pernah rs selesa dgn mmbr laki sblom ni sbb i skolah perempuan..tp dgn Mr.S ni srious i rs lain, otak ni dok bayang mcm2 dh..haha.. then ktorg pg hiking, bukan berdua la dgn mmbr skali...dh jmpa skali rs nk jmpa berkali2 plk.. Mr.S ni sweet, then pkai braces plk lg sexy and smart too..tak lupa bju fit dia and badan berketul2 tu. hehe klau blh semua assignment nk bt dgn dia..sembang pnya sembang bru i tau dia jenis mcm mna, nk kenal hati budi msing2 la knon yg i kurang pcaya bila first time dia ckp dia model. hahaha srious i tak tahan nk gelak stelah dia tnjok picture2 dia i terpegun seketika...cair i tgk. haha ♥☺

Mr.s pujaan hati

benda betulnya ktorg suka sama suka tp malu nk ckp, ye la takkan i plk nk kne pg mngaku kt dia plk, syok diam2 sudah la...tp Mr.S ni cemburu bila i dekat dgn org lain..ye la, dh tak bgtau mn lah i nk tahu u suka i..hahaha nasib baik tak melepas..akhirnya dia luahkan perasaan walaupun bukan face to face just kt wechat pon jd la..apa lg hati i berbunga2 la ms tu. haha so, now ktorg together la apa lg.hehe (to be continued) ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

Don't wait for the perfect moment,take the moment and make it perfect

#20:- Every Man Needs A Woman When His Life Is A Mess

Every man needs a woman when his life is a mess, because just like in a game of chess; the queen protects the king.

Being there for the people that you love is one of the most crucial things that you can do to show them that they are loved in their time of need. 
True love is about being there when it is necessary for you to do so, and not just when it is most convenient. The moments that you were there for someone in their time of need are the moments that they will hopefully remember most. 
Being a shoulder for a loved one to lean on and cry on may mean everything in the world to that person, and we must never take this for granted. 
Though being there may actually be a huge inconvenience for you, since it may cause you to lose out on the things in your life that are currently important at the present time, the good memories that you helped to make yourself a part of not only may help the person that you are sacrificing for at the moment to feel better, it may also inspire them to be there for you and other peers in their times of need as well.<3

#19:- Normal People Don't Go Around Destroying Other Human Beings

If someone treats you like shit, just remember that there is something wrong with them, not you.

If you ever want to truly respect yourself you have to be willing to remember that your worth is infinite in value. We are all priceless, and just because someone else can't see it does not at all mean that we should invest all of our time into trying to convince them otherwise. 
It is not your duty to try and convince everyone else that you are great. 
It is your duty to become the greatest at whatever it is that you may do. 
It is your duty to work as hard as possible at everything from your relationships, your work, and your education. The ignorance of someone else can only affect your life if you allow it to. 
You have the power to go wherever it is that you want to go, and you dont have to have anyone else's belief but your own sometimes to overcome lifes greatest hurdles.

#18:- Life Is Too Short To Start Your Day With Broken Pieces Of Yesterday

Life is too short to start your day with broken pieces of yesterday, it will definitely destroy your wonderful today and ruin your great tomorrow!

If we are ever going to make the best out of our everyday lives, we have to live in the moment as much as possible. 
How often do you make every day the best day you possibly can make it. How often do you set a goal for each day, and then go out and achieve it? 
Every day, the happiest people in the world don't complain about what they do or where they are, 
they appreciate what they have, and they appreciate that they still have the ability to do more, to go farther than they have ever been. 
Making the best of each day means that you will have to forget about the memories in your past that only weigh you down, and that looking too far forward in the future isn't where your focus should be either. 
Make the best of each day, vow to become better as each day comes.