i hate you...

I hate you for always being there for me 

when I need you by my side. 

I hate you for telling me sweet things

which make me fall so bad. 

But most of all, 

I hate myself for believing in everything you do 

and say when I know you're just lying anyway

2nd anniversary..

today was our anniversary day
I thought you forget about it,but you don't.
thank you for loving me. 

'my life saver' 

=)

three words..

Three words I wish to say

three words that might scare you away. 

Don’t you know those three words describe 

who you are to me? 

But probably right now 

those three words 

that I wish to say are the same 

words you said to her.

one day...

One day

we might forget the people that once came to our lives. 

But I know that when that day comes, 

I won’t forget you. 

Cause you didn’t just come into my life, 

you became a part of it.

some good things never last..

What we had was perfect

what we had was true

I loved you completely and so did you 

But what we had is now over

it’s all in the past

I just have to accept that some good things 

never last.

100 REASONS WHY I LOVE JUSTIN BIEBAN

1.looks exactly like justin bieber

2.caring

3.cool

4.damn cute

5.Awesome style in clothes

6.Seems very sweet

7.So loving

8.Amazing eyes

9.Awesome personality

10.OF COURSE CUTE FINGERS :P

11.Stunning smile

12.Looks awesome in red

13.Could make almost all girls melt :D

14.Awesome wif little kids

15.Funny

16.Great prankster

17.Gentle

18.Kind

19.100x smarter than DS

20.Always care bout others

21.Friendly

22.Gonna be next youtube superstar :D

23.awesome eyelashes

24.Honest

25.Different and unique from all the others

26.Never show off at all

27.Nice hair

28.Always make others feel hepi all the time

29.Advice me when i think stupidly

30.In the conclusion,u're awesome n nobody cn ever replace ur place!!!!

31. The way u always try to help others.
32. Always understands me.
33. Ur crazy voice.
34. Ur craziness.
35. The way u talk.
36. The way u walk.
37. The way u treat ur frenz.
38. Luv the suprises u do for me.
39. The way u laugh.
40. The way u make me laugh.
41. The way u treat me.
42. Ur ability to make me feel better when times are tough.
43. The way u bully me.
44. I love hanging out with u.
45. How we argue-bout funny things.
46. Always keep ur promises.
47. MY BEST BUDDY EVER.
48. Stubborn.
49. Trustworthy.
50. U knw all my secrets and keep them.
51. Bcoz of u my life full of hapiness.
52. Accompany me to pass unhappy days.
53. Bcoz of u i dun feel lonely anymore.
54. Listen everything i say.
55. U care bout me.
56. The way u make me jealous.
57. I like spending most of my time wit u.
58. U dun mind having a conversation bout strange topics i bring up.
59. U make my day brighter with ur presence.
60. U inspire me to write this things.
61. Always discuss with me hw to kill DS. :p
62. U have thought me the true meaning of FRIENDSHIP.
63. u look cute when u stare.
64. Everyone likes u.
65. Our memories.
66. Even my fly members like u.
67. Never show ur bad mood to others.
68. Realy cute when u say some words- "i dun wanna pardon" :D
69. U're adorable.
70. I luv the way u scold others.
71. U stand by me when i need help.
72. Luv the way u get angry.
73. Dun give a damn for ur HATER (DS) :D
74. U make me blush whenever i see u. :D
75. Always have ur own style.
76. Love ur sign.
77. Ur english is way much better than others.
78. U n me hate the same alphabet 'A'.
79. Love ur watch.
80. I love ur earings.
81. I love the way u scribble my smiley.
82. I love the way v talk in the class infront of the teacher...using her voice as background music.
83. I like and
84. I like ur flipper sliper.
85. I love ur cap.
86. I love whenever u get blur. ~_~
87. I love the way u say sory whenever sumthing unexpected happened.
88. I love ur purple shade.
89. You're the reason y i love bieber.
90. You're the reason y i love red colour.
91. You always be urself to me.
92. I love the way u make me feel when u're around.
93. U make my life complete buddy.
94. U treat everyone in a same way.
95. I love the way u tell the truth to me.
96. I like ur weird thoughts n crazy stuffs.
97. I love the moment v stay up late nite n chat.
98. I like ur white spec.
99. I love the way u thank me when i do sumthing for u.
100. Ur cuteness make me wanna faint. :D

written by : number #1 fan of J.Bieban

nobody knows it but me..

I pretend that I'm glad you went away
These four walls closing more every day
And I'm dying inside
And nobody knows it but me
Like a clown I put on a show
The pain is real even if nobody knows
And I'm crying inside
And nobody knows it but me

Why didn't I say the things I needed to say
How could I let my angel get away
Now my world is just a-tumbling down
I can say it so clearly but you're nowhere around

The nights are so lonely the days are so sad and
I just keep thinking about the love that we had
And I'm missing you
And nobody knows it but me
I carry smile when I'm broken in two
And I'm nobody without someone like you
I'm trembling inside
And nobody knows it but me 
Lie awake, it's a quarter past three
I'm screaming at night if I thought you'd hear me
Yeah, my heart is calling you
And nobody knows it but me
How blue can I get?
You could ask my heart
But like a jigsaw puzzle it's been torn all apart
Billion words couldn't say just how I feel
A million years from now you know I'll be loving you still

Tomorrow morning, I'm a hit a dusty road
Gonna find you, where ever, ever you might go
And I'm gonna load my heart and hope you come back to me

before i let u go..

I can still remember like yesterday
We were so in love in a special way
And knowing that your love will
make me feel oh so right
But now I feel lost, don't know what to do
Each and every day I think of you
Holdin' back the tears, I'm trying with all my might
Because you've gone and left me standing All alone
And I know I've got to face tomorrow On my own....
But baby....

Before I let you go
I want to say I love you
I hope that you're listenin' 'Coz it's true,baby
You'll be forever in my heart
And I know that no one else will do,
yeah So before I let you go
I want to say .....
I love you
I wish that it could be just like before
I know I could've given you so much more
Even though you know I'd given you all my love
I miss your smile, I miss your kiss
Each and every day I reminisce
'Coz baby it's you That I'm always dreaming of...
Coz Letting love go is never easy
But I love you so That's why I set you free And I know
Someday
Somehow
I'll find a way To leave it all behind me
Guess it wasn't meant to be But baby.........
So before I let you go I want to say.......I love you .

what is love?

Love? 

It's kind of complicated, 

but I'll tell you this the second you're willing to make yourself miserable to make someone else happy, that's love right there.

me and YOU (how we met) ~part 1

one day I saw you at the restaurant.

I know who you are and you know who I am.

You saw me but you turn away and walked faster.

I followed you.

Until you reached one corner I started to sing :

"Call me Mr. been there done that

Top model chick to your every day hood rat

Less than all but more than a few

But I've never met one like you

Been all over the world

Done a little bit of everything

Little bit of everywhere

With a little bit of everyone

All the girls I've been with

Things I've seen it takes much to impress

But sure enough your glow it makes your soul stand out from all the rest, baby."

You just ignore me.

I never give up.

You walked more faster and then you stop.

You don't say anything but you look at me with angry face.

you look so cute !

when I saw you angry face i started to dance and sing:

"I could be in love

But I just don't know

Baby one thing is for certain

Whatever you do is working

Other girls don't matter

In your presence can't do what you do

There's a million girls around but I don't see no one but you"

I hold you hand and sing :

"Girl you're so one in a million

You are

Baby you're the best I ever had

Best I ever had

And I'm certain that

There ain't nothing better

No there ain't nothing better than this

You're not a regular girl

You don't give a damn about the loot

Talking about I can't do for you

But you can do for yourself

Even though that ain't so

Baby cause my dough don't know how to end

But that independent thing I'm with it

All we do is win baby"

You take your hand away from me and walked away with disgusted face.

I never give up to impressed you.

I started walk towards you and sing :

"I could be in love

But I just don't know

Baby one thing is for certain

Whatever you do is working

Other girls don't matter

In your presence can't do what you do

There's a million girls around but I don't see no one but you

Baby you're so one in a million

You are

Baby you're the best I ever had

Best I ever had

And I'm certain that

There ain't nothing better

No there ain't nothing better than this

Girl you're so one in a million

You are

Baby you're the best I ever had

Best I ever had

And I'm certain that

There ain't nothing better

No there ain't nothing better than this"

You just walk away with angry face again.

I never give up girl.

but you started to smile when I dance and sing :

"Diamond girl,

Only one in the world,

Just one of a kind,

She mine."

but you started your angry face again when I sing :

"all that I can think about is what this thing could be

A future baby

Baby you're one of a kind

That means that you're the only one for me

Only one for me"

bacause other girls come near me.

and I sing :

"Baby you're so one in a million

You are

Baby you're the best I ever had

Best I ever had

And I'm certain that

There ain't nothing better

No there ain't nothing better than this

Girl you're so one in a million

You are

Baby you're the best I ever had

Best I ever had

And I'm certain that

There ain't nothing better

No there ain't nothing better than this"

You just walk away.

I followed you.

and you say "you will never give up,do you?"

written by: Achik

like smiling is going to just take away all the hurt and pain.

People are always telling me to smile

like smiling is going to just take away all 

the hurt and pain. 

Well I've tried that I've tried hiding my sorrows 

and covering the sadness in smiles and 

what I've learned is that when it hurts this much 

inside your heart always has a way of showing it 

no matter how 

many masks you wear.

Depression !

It's the loneliest feeling in the world 

to find yourself standing up 

when everyone else is sitting down. 

To have everybody look at you and 

say "what's the matter with her?" 

I know what it feels like. 

Walking down an empty street, 

listening to the sound of your own footsteps. 

Shutters closed, 

blinds drawn, 

doors locked against you. 

And you aren't sure whether you're walking toward something, 

or if you're just walking away.

i don't regret.

I don’t regret 

the rain 

or 

the nights I felt the pain 

or 

the tears I had to cry some of those times along the way. 

For every road I had to take, 

every time my heart would break, 

it was just something I had to do to get 

me to you.

what's your embarrassing moment ? XD

today......

aku spend time aku duduk di luar kelas

SEBAB.........................

cikgu aku KICK aku kluar 

tp bukan aku sorg la..nk mampos

aku sorg? MALU kot..

aku......KAMI kne KICK sbb

masok kelas lmbt...kami msok

kelas lmbt ada sbb la...

kami pg surau bc Al-Quran..

besalah bulan posa ni...xbleh mkn tym rehat..

kne pg surau la kumpul pahala...haha

kami naik je dh kena maki...

AKU PON XMAU DOK DLM KELAS HG la...

asyik nk lepas geram kt org je...

hg ingt kami ni pg mrayau ke haa..sbb tu

msok kelas lmbt?

xpe..sabar je...

tp SYOK jgk dok luar..

bukan slalu kna dok luar an...

ms tym dia nk kuar lnsong x pndang kami..

arhh...kesah pa...

haa...ni la yg best ni...

dia jalan je kluar pntu kelas aku

diaa......JATUH!!!!!!!!!! XD

*aku gelak smbil toleh ke arah lain*

tu la....hg bg denda kt org yg x besalah...

haH! amek hg kena balik!

padan muka !

XD

XD

XD

love love love HATE HATE HATE

You were everything I wanted

You were everything a girl could be

Then you left me brokenhearted

Now you don't mean a thing to me

i'm stupid. i'm a fool ?

My friends say  

I’m stupid for loving someone who’d never notice me, 

they say that  

I’m a fool and all I’ll end up is to be brokenhearted. 

I think  

they’re wrong cause  

if they 

just know what I see in you,  

they’ll 

be crazy loving you too.

i haven't

I haven’t cried for others the way I’m crying for you,  

I haven’t showed others the care I’m giving you, 

I haven’t treated others the way I’m treating you and  

I haven’t loved anyone the way I’m loving you.

A day with you :)

today, i went out with "my life saver" !
i'm so excited .
like usual she'll fetch me at 2 o'clock .
we watch movie and 

we went dinner together.
while watching movies I just can't stop 

holding her hand and i can't stop 

talking even we're in the theather.
after we finished watching movies 

we goe for a walk in the mall 

she said that she want to go 

somewhere else but I don't want. sorry "sky".
after that we go for a dinner.
Like usual other people do,

while waiting our food we talking.
I don't know what to talked or 

how to start conversation with her.
I started to talked about my grandmother
I said I miss my grandmother
and I think that is the foolish thing 

ever to talked about !
and i think she bored.
After we ate our dinner.
I started a conversation again. 

I talked about BRAIN this time.
I just tell her what my therapist 

said to me and 

i think she enjoyed it because 

she smile and laughing.
i'm glad I can make you smile :)

MY LIFE SAVER !

when I woke up this morning
everything was fine until I knew someone
gonna come to my house !
is not that i don't like people come to my house
it just i feel uncomfortable.
they like to judge people
I don't like people who remind me of myself!
and then "my life saver" texting me !
I feel like wooo-hooh!
I told her about this, that i don't like bla-bla-bla...
she text me back and she say "wanna send ma to cititel hotel at 1 o'clock , you wanna follow?"
yeah,why not..
after "my life saver" send her ma to hotel "my life saver" pick me up at usual place.
and we go to mall and go to book store.
at there I hug her tightly , i don't wanna lose her !
then have a chat at mcD.
something happen at there , that she feel so relieve.
I can't tell you why she felt that way !
SECRET !
i'm very happy this is the first time we spent together 2 days sequent .
"I love you, not only for what you are, But for what I am when I am with you."

i love you COMOT!