April : The End.

 

 

What has happened to me?
I used to know exactly what I wanted.
I wanted us to be together.
I wanted to be yours.
But now I don't feel like I'm not good enough.
I feel like I have failed and don't
deserve another chance.
You deserve better than me.
You deserve someone that would never hurt you.
I have hurt you and I am scared I will do it again.
And the next time I do,
I wont get another chance.

Most people say we were meant to be together.
And I used to think that too.
But now I don't know what to think.
Should I just let you go
So you can find someone better?
Someone that deserves a great person like you?
Or should I stay with you and hope
I don't mess everything up again?

You are the kind of person that will give anyone a second chance.
Even if they don't deserve it.
You have given me a lot of second chances
And after I broke your heart once,
I feel like I don't deserve a second chance.
I messed up in the worst way possible
And no one should have to go through that kind of heartache.

All I really want is for you to be happy.
And I think the best way for that to happen
Is if you are not with me...

S.
I love you with all my heart
But I don't deserve you.

2015 : All about me and me and me !

20th Birthday

so, it's March again and i'm officially 20 years old! yeah3.. i'm old, but not that old, right ? before my birhtday I don't really feels like celebrating, I feels like some kind of dark cloud over my head and grumpy. I don't know why, maybe because i'm turning 20 years old this year, the figures kinda make me scared.

So, when I woke up, I don't feel like doing anything. Then I get text messages from one of my friend saying that "Come over". I know they're definitely planning something, something nasty ! I can smell it ! but it's cool, I wanna know what they really up to. By the time I got there, just sitting there, talking and this 'guy' throwing me some flour all over me, later on, my friends join him, I barely see what's going on, that is just phucking nasty ! Not just that, after they throw at me flour, it didn't stop there. They open the pipe and spray water all over me! can you imagine flour + water = really really sticky ! but i'm not mad at all, I think thats funny and kinda fun. haha 

-And not to forget, Thank you for all of you wishing me happy birthday and the gifts too. I really appreciate it and I don't know how to repay you guys. I'm very happy !Did you see it, i'm smiling ! :D :)

Love Life

I think it has been almost a year i've been single. It sound pathetic right..yeah, i know.. I'm kinda jealous when I go out with my friend, they all bring their own partner and I was like sitting there and "hey, I have new apps on my phone". That just sounds really really sad ! But I do really have a lot of guy friend but just friend, nothing more.I think i'm not ready for that kind of relationship, maybe because of my past love life.. Yeah, it takes me a year to get over it and move on with my life. I don't expect anything from anyone. If he's happy without me, why should I be sad? I'm happy for him too. :) Finally, I can look at him and smile. I don't feel that kind of hurt anymore. When I look at him, I feel nothing. :) That is the greatest success in my life and wisest decision ever made, MOVE ON.

 

Well, thats it I guess. 

I love you 

xoxoxo

#23:- Locked in the past.

Life goes on... Whether you choose to move on and take a chance in the unknown. Or stay behind, locked in the past, thinking of what could've been.

Sometimes when we are trying to act as though we have moved on from a situation, a person, ill feelings, or an event in our past we refuse to believe that we really still care. It is very important to note that when you are still willing to talk about something, especially if it is in a negative connotation, then chances are that you still care about it in some fashion deep down. In order to truly be over something in their past they must gather no feelings or sentiments when they think about it, or talk about it.

In order to move on from something of his or her past one has to change his way of thinking, and his or her actions when the subject matter seems to come up in their lives. In other words, dont speak negatively of things or people of your past, when you think about them wish them well, and then think about how great your life is now, and how great the people and things in your life at this point are helping to make it this way. Live your life looking and moving forward, instead of looking backwards and standing still.

I'm done.

  “If pain must come, may it come quickly. Because I have a life to live, and I need to live it in the best way possible. If he has to make a choice, may he make it now. Then I will either wait for him or forget him.” 

It's already September?! It's amazing how fast time flies by and you don't even realize it. Just within 9 months I have experienced lots of 'bullshit' can't wait till the end of the year, I wonder how life will surprise me.
Life is too short to just focus on the hurtful, heartbreaking, mental breakdown times, and instead I should live life to the fullest. No matter how life knock me down, I will keep my head high, chin up. 

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I really miss you but I think I'm done waiting. You have no idea how long I have been waiting for you, I feel like a fool. All I want is talk, just normal talk, just talk not like you sit in front of me and ask what's wrong, you barely looking at me and you said hurry up cuz you got some shit to do. Every day how I wish to bumped into you, even just for a sec it will definitely make my day. But for now, I'm done..just done.

#22:- TRUST

If someone hurts you, betrays you, or breaks your heart forgive them, for they have helped you learn about trust and the importance of being cautious when you open your heart.

In life there is a lesson to be learned in all of your victories and all of your defeats. Don't let things like failed relationships bring you down or stop you from ever wanting to trust another human being again. Forgive those who have abused your trust, those who are supposed to be with you but act as if they are against you, those who have been willing to not only break your heart, but willing to betray you as well. These are the people who have helped you the most, because these are the people who have taught you who and how to trust, when to be cautious, warning signs of someone who is becoming untrustworthy, and ultimately they have helped you to determine in the future who to open your heart to, and who not to as well. One thing that is easy to do in this world is run from new challenges, and run from new relationships in an effort to preserve us from damage. In actuality this often causes more heartache because the weights of dealing with loneliness, especially when dealing with the stress that life produces will weigh on a single person heavily.Start trusting. Of course it is always necessary to use your instincts to help prevent yourself from harmful situations, but you must be willing to keep a positive mindset when it comes to interacting with new friends. Just be willing to keep an open mind and you will find that life has so much more depth than you maybe once thought.
Live your life, don't let the feelings of hurt and pain live your life for you, use your wisdom from your experiences but never let them hold you back from seeing greatness. 

MAY : All in one :) :(

Welcome May! haha dh hjung bulan bru nk welcome.. biasa lah agak busy dgn final smpai lupa tarikh :p I believe this is my second entry this year about ME. eh ye ke... hentam je la.. so within this 5 months byk bnde yg aku blajar.. byk bnde yg x sngka akn jd.. happy, sad, frust..sumenye cmpur skali..huhu.. tak nak lah pjg2 nk cite psal sad2 story nk cite yg happy2 je...

So, after a year (myb) someone yg aku xpnh putus harapan tggu, mimpi siang malam, cewaah.. akhirnya msg kt fb, walaupun stakat kata "happy birthday" ia sgt bermakna..haha. U tau x I tggu u pnye lame..mne U pg? huhu. Well, actually x blh nk blame dia 100% coz it's my fault .. the last time aku msg dia aku yg kata jgn cari aku lg..so dia bt apa yg disuruh je. haha at least dia ingt jgk birthday aku.. pnye excited dpt msg tu smpai nk mkn pn x lalu dh..mle2 nk bt la jual mahal tp x blh la.. I rindu U sgt2..I ingt U dh kahwin :p haha. ok3.enough. xD. Dari msg "happy birthday" tu smpai skrg x putus msg, bgaikan msg tu makanan harian...msti msg jgk2.. dari Good Morning smpai lah Good Night x jemu2... hehe..weekend je msti keluar tgk wyg, jejalan buang ms lepas rindu gitu. haha. If you read this, I just wanna let you know that I love you so much, please don't leave.. :(.
 --FIN--

Before I end this entry, awak(you know who).. please forgive me all things that I've done to you. apa yg I bt tu mmg x ptt and I keep blaming you for everything when I know It's my fault maybe I tak bersedia nk serious with anyone yet, I hope you understand.. Never meant to break your heart I'm not that 'kind' of girl if you know what I mean . Thank you for coming into my life and giving me joy, thank you for loving me and receiving my love in return. Thank you for the memories I will cherish forever.  I know how it feels but in time your heart will heal and you`ll move on. I hope you find someone better than me, deserve you, treat you right.This is goodbye.

#21:- Don't you forget this is your dream.

Devote yourself to an idea. Go make it happen. Struggle on it. Overcome your fears. Smile. Don't you forget: this is your dream.

Being consistent conquers devoting yourself to an idea or dream. When you fail, keep trying. When you feel pain, keep going. When you are fearful, keep progressing forward.

 Remember, life isn't just about dreaming, living your life is about taking steps each day, and each moment you have a chance to, to go after your dreams. There is going to be struggle. 

There is going to be opposition. There will be people who come against you, and tell you that you can't do the things that you have your heart set upon! Pay them no mind, they only have something to say because they are much too fearful to go after their own dreams. 

Never forget to keep smiling, let everyone see you as happy on the outside as you are on the inside, because you are one of the few who is bold enough to go after your dreams.

Work hard daily, and continue to stay focused on obtaining the life that you want for you and the people who matter most to you.

*you were right, maybe this is the right thing to do. I should support you not against.*

2014!!!! it's all about me me me me me! :D

So, today i taknak speaking london lah..i nk ckp bahasa ibunda..waah. hehe.. pejam celik,pejam celik dh masuk bulan 2(FEB) tahun 2014 cepat masa berlalu rs mcm smlm bru celebrate new year, kononya la kan padahal celebrate new year dlm mimpi je.haha. 2014 ni i nk mulakan hidup baru, semuanya baru2 lah kan and guess what, i dh masuk kolej! dekat dgn rumah plk tu lg syok...so far so good la kt kolej tu dapat ramai kawan..kawan2 plk semuanya best2 takde yg sombong tp ade la 2 3 org tu ntah pape je.haha x kesah la..asalkan dia tak kacau hidup i.. Lg.....i dapat buah hati kt sne..eh...opps! haha..Setelah sekian lama kne bleter dgn ibu akhirnya ank ksygan dh continue study...cewaahh..first day at college mmg nervous sbb takut takde mmbr mcm2 feeling la rasa pastu ada satu mamat ni msuk kelas srious aku takut tgk dia sbb badan dia 'tough' pkai plk bju fit nk bertentang mata pon seram.haha tp sebenarnya dia baik tgk je mcm garang tp hati lembut..i repeat hati lembut bukan dia lembut.. memandangkan dh msuk topik mamat 'tough' ni...ehem.. dia lah buah hati i.. haha ♥☺ Nama dia mula dgn huruf S,korang tak pyh la tahu full name dia tak famous pn.. google pon takkan ada. hehe. So, first time jumpa/sembang ms bt study group, hri tu lah dri mata jatuh ke hati..i tak pernah rs selesa dgn mmbr laki sblom ni sbb i skolah perempuan..tp dgn Mr.S ni srious i rs lain, otak ni dok bayang mcm2 dh..haha.. then ktorg pg hiking, bukan berdua la dgn mmbr skali...dh jmpa skali rs nk jmpa berkali2 plk.. Mr.S ni sweet, then pkai braces plk lg sexy and smart too..tak lupa bju fit dia and badan berketul2 tu. hehe klau blh semua assignment nk bt dgn dia..sembang pnya sembang bru i tau dia jenis mcm mna, nk kenal hati budi msing2 la knon yg i kurang pcaya bila first time dia ckp dia model. hahaha srious i tak tahan nk gelak stelah dia tnjok picture2 dia i terpegun seketika...cair i tgk. haha ♥☺

Mr.s pujaan hati

benda betulnya ktorg suka sama suka tp malu nk ckp, ye la takkan i plk nk kne pg mngaku kt dia plk, syok diam2 sudah la...tp Mr.S ni cemburu bila i dekat dgn org lain..ye la, dh tak bgtau mn lah i nk tahu u suka i..hahaha nasib baik tak melepas..akhirnya dia luahkan perasaan walaupun bukan face to face just kt wechat pon jd la..apa lg hati i berbunga2 la ms tu. haha so, now ktorg together la apa lg.hehe (to be continued) ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

Don't wait for the perfect moment,take the moment and make it perfect

#20:- Every Man Needs A Woman When His Life Is A Mess

Every man needs a woman when his life is a mess, because just like in a game of chess; the queen protects the king.

Being there for the people that you love is one of the most crucial things that you can do to show them that they are loved in their time of need. 
True love is about being there when it is necessary for you to do so, and not just when it is most convenient. The moments that you were there for someone in their time of need are the moments that they will hopefully remember most. 
Being a shoulder for a loved one to lean on and cry on may mean everything in the world to that person, and we must never take this for granted. 
Though being there may actually be a huge inconvenience for you, since it may cause you to lose out on the things in your life that are currently important at the present time, the good memories that you helped to make yourself a part of not only may help the person that you are sacrificing for at the moment to feel better, it may also inspire them to be there for you and other peers in their times of need as well.<3

#19:- Normal People Don't Go Around Destroying Other Human Beings

If someone treats you like shit, just remember that there is something wrong with them, not you.

If you ever want to truly respect yourself you have to be willing to remember that your worth is infinite in value. We are all priceless, and just because someone else can't see it does not at all mean that we should invest all of our time into trying to convince them otherwise. 
It is not your duty to try and convince everyone else that you are great. 
It is your duty to become the greatest at whatever it is that you may do. 
It is your duty to work as hard as possible at everything from your relationships, your work, and your education. The ignorance of someone else can only affect your life if you allow it to. 
You have the power to go wherever it is that you want to go, and you dont have to have anyone else's belief but your own sometimes to overcome lifes greatest hurdles.

#18:- Life Is Too Short To Start Your Day With Broken Pieces Of Yesterday

Life is too short to start your day with broken pieces of yesterday, it will definitely destroy your wonderful today and ruin your great tomorrow!

If we are ever going to make the best out of our everyday lives, we have to live in the moment as much as possible. 
How often do you make every day the best day you possibly can make it. How often do you set a goal for each day, and then go out and achieve it? 
Every day, the happiest people in the world don't complain about what they do or where they are, 
they appreciate what they have, and they appreciate that they still have the ability to do more, to go farther than they have ever been. 
Making the best of each day means that you will have to forget about the memories in your past that only weigh you down, and that looking too far forward in the future isn't where your focus should be either. 
Make the best of each day, vow to become better as each day comes.

STOP JUDGING PEOPLE

seriously. why do people judge others? who's give you the power to judge someone? You have no idea what they have been through.Or maybe you judging them because you realize that their life better than you, they dressed better than you, their rides better than you, their jobs better than you or you don't have a loving family like them? you judging people because you couldn't be like them? this is sick! Do you ever think that when you judging people maybe they will take it seriously every words you say. you ugly, you fat, go and kill yourself, you are worthless, you stupid, you fake, you slut by saying something like that to people you don't really know their stories makes you feel better about yourself? I gotta tell you people are disgusting! You see that girl over there that constantly cry without any reason, yes the one you call 'freak' but you didn't know that she just lost both of her parents in car crash.How about that girl that you call her 'weirdo' but you didn't know that she was been raped.That girl you thought she was attention seekers , she cut herself but you didn't know that she depressed and need help. why don't you help them instead of judging them?You see that girl who smile all the time like she don't have any problem the one you call her 'slut' is the same girl who cries at night to sleep. You don't know their stories how can you judge them? You call her 'fat' but you didn't know that she starved herself trying to be perfect and thanks to you she is now bulimic. Nobody's perfect.why would you think you're so perfect? for me you're so fake! you judge people who way better than you. Do you think it's funny when someone attempt suicide because of your act? "you're a useless bitch" when she's home, she think again what you said earlier and think maybe they were right, i'm useless, nobody loves me, I should kill myself. The next morning her mother trying to wake her up to school and found her dead, with rope around her neck! Her parents have no idea what happened to her daughter. She killed herself because of your words. So technically you are a murderer. The sad thing is the person who judging you is your own friend. "There's a story behind every person. There's a reason why they're they way they are stop judging."

#17:- Never Give Up

If you're still looking for a happy ending I suggest you start searching for a new beginning.

 Realizing that there are huge differences between giving up and moving on is a huge part of becoming mature in life. 
A person with a considerable amount of wisdom is a person that knows when it is time to let something or someone go out of their lives.
Not every one knows every single answer to every problem, and yes sometimes people make mistakes by leaving a situation to early, or staying in a bad situation for too long, 
but those who just seem to know the right time for a need in the change of scenery, are those who are willing to listen to their heart. 
It is important to think about our decisions in life and to weigh them against our past experiences and so forth, but there are times when we just have to be willing to listen to what is being said in the deepest part of our heart.

#16:- 15 Ways To Keep a Relationship Working

 

1. Love each other
2. Don't lie
3. Keep communication open
4. Stay sweet
5. When you get hurt just forgive and forget
6. Never talk about break-ups
7. Never say it's okay even when it's not
8. Forget about "pride"
9. If you say sorry mean it
10. Don't compare your past with your present
11. Don't talk about your stupid ex's
12. Give and take process
13. Beware of his/her feelings
14. When you had a fight, don't let the day pass
15. Don't be the perfect one, be the right one 

Following these steps are vital to keep a relationship afloat. Many people don't realize that a relationship requires a lot of work and that the work just doesn't end when the relationship starts. Of course some of these points are just plain common sense, of course we are not to lie, cheat, or be dishonest with our relationship partner but there are things on this list that we don't always remember to do. A lot of times in relationships we may apologize in order to get our loved one off our back at the time, but not be sincere about our apology. It is important to be sincere about anytime you apologize for future references, apologizing should be reserved for times when you are truly sorry. An important aspect of a relationship that everyone doesn't think about too much is having your relationship partner's back. When you are in a relationship with someone and you betray them, whether if they know about it or not, you are destined to sink your relationship. When your in a relationship a good rule to abide by is not to do anything to your significant other that you wouldn't want your significant other to do to you.

#15:- Some People Are Like Dark Clouds

Some people are like dark clouds, when they disappear, it's a brighter day. Know when its time to let go. Removing negative people from your life doesn't mean you hate them, it just means that you love yourself more.

As we experience more and more of life, and as we experience dealing with the people in our lives, we will more than likely find ourselves dealing with people who are thoughtless. Sometimes there will be people in our lives who hurt us, maybe without a second thought, because they may honestly believe that what they are doing or saying is the right thing. Developing into a person of integrity is living by the wisdom that though offensive people will come your way, living a life full of peace and love is still the only way to truly live. Never let a thoughtless person take who you are at the core away from you. Never let a thoughtless person stop you from dreaming or continuing the act of pursuing your dreams. Despite what they think, or dont think about you or themselves, if you are ever going to reach high places, you have to keep pushing no matter what!

#14:- Be Who You Are Not Who Others Want You To Be

For beautiful eyes, look for the good in others; for beautiful lips, speak only words of kindness; and for poise, walk with the knowledge that you are never alone. -Audrey Hepburn 

To really be beautiful, all that you have to be is the truest form of yourself at all times. When someone is really able to live life as their true self-things like negativity and haters cannot disrupt their flow. 

People who see life in the most beautiful of ways always see the good in each situation and in each person that they encounter.

People who see life in the most beautiful of ways speak words of life into themselves and everyone that they come into contact with, never leaving a bad impression, and never knowing a stranger.

Those who are truly beautiful walk strong with courage and humble confidence knowing that God is with them, and that they are never alone.

Be who you are not who others want you to be, not what your negative thoughts tell you to be, be that great person that you have on the inside of you. You will be loved!

#13:- When Someone Is Loving You The Most

It is when you can't see how much someone loves you that they are loving you the most. -Linda Poindexter

 A lot of times when people love us, we don't notice because we only seem to notice all of the other crazy/weird things that they are doing.

Smile, I'm joking. But there is much truth in what I just said. A lot of times when people have hidden feelings for us, we obviously don't have a clue because their feelings are hidden.

These types of scenarios are perfect reasons why we should always treat everyone with kindness, patience, and love, even if the love we may feel for them is nothing like the love that may be secretly feeling for us.

No matter what, we should be good to people, even if we have to eventually let them down when their true feelings arise, be good to these people, and karma will be an excellent friend to you as well. You never know how someone really feels, so just be sure to be good to people, that usually never goes wrong.

#12:- How to Get Rid of Pimples Fast

There are a lot of lotions and medicines on the market to treat pimples but they can take time. Many natural methods are effective in treating pimples within a very short time period and you don't have to run to the market to get some gel for pimples you can just simply get straight from your fridge!

Here are the top 10 ways to get rid of pimples fast:

1.  Ice ⇒ Ice can be used to quickly get rid of pimples. It helps in improving blood circulation to the affected area, and in freezing the skin pores and removing dirt and oil accumulated on the skin. You can use ice cubes or crushed ice, whichever is convenient. ►Wrap the ice in a piece of cloth and hold it on the affected skin area for a few seconds. Wait a few minutes and repeat the process.
2. Lemon ⇒ Another quick way to get rid of pimples is the use of lemon juice, which is rich in vitamin C. Lemon juice helps pimples dry up faster. Be sure to use fresh lemon juice and not bottled juice, which has preservatives. There are a couple of ways to apply this remedy. ►Dip a clean cotton swab in fresh lemon juice and apply it to the pimples before going to bed.
3. Honey ⇒ Honey is a source of natural antibiotics that can speed up the healing process, as well as help prevent infections. ►Dip and clean cotton swab in honey, put it directly on the affected area and leave it on for half an hour and wash the skin well with lukewarm water.
4. Toothpaste ⇒ The toothpaste that you use every morning to clean your teeth also can be used to treat pimples quickly. It is most effective when used following the ice remedy. You must use white toothpaste; avoid using gel toothpaste. ►Apply some white toothpaste over the affected skin area before going to bed , In the morning, wash your face with water and you will see a significant improvement in the swelling. *If you wish, you can repeat the process in the daytime also. Just make sure the toothpaste remains on the pimples for at least half an hour.*
5. Steam ⇒ Steaming is wonderful for your skin at any time, but particularly when you have pimples. The steam will open your pores and allow your skin to breathe. This helps get rid of oils, dirt and bacteria trapped in the pores that can cause infection or inflammation.Garlic is an antiviral, antifungal, antiseptic and antioxidant agent that can help in the fast treatment of pimples. The sulfur in garlic also promotes quick healing of pimples.►Fill a large container with hot water and allow the steam to come in contact with your face for a few minutes after that rinse your face with lukewarm water and, after drying, apply an oil-free moisturizer. *This treatment will also give your complexion a lovely glow.*
6. Garlic ⇒ Garlic is an antiviral, anti fungal, antiseptic and antioxidant agent that can help in the fast treatment of pimples. The sulfur in garlic also promotes quick healing of pimples.►Cut a fresh garlic clove into two pieces.-Rub the garlic on the pimples and leave it for five minutes before washing the skin with lukewarm water.-Repeat the treatment several times a day.
7. Baking soda ⇒ Baking soda is a good option for all, but especially those with sensitive skin because it will not cause any kind of skin irritation.►Make a thick paste by mixing one teaspoon of baking soda with some water or lemon juice.-Wash your skin well, leaving it slightly damp. Apply the paste on the affected areas and allow it to dry for a few minutes. Never keep baking soda on your skin for longer than a few minutes as it can cause dryness.-Wash your face with warm water and apply a moisturizer.Repeat the process twice a day for quick results.
8.  Peppermint ⇒ Peppermint is a powerful herb that can help eliminate pimples very fast. The calming, soothing effect of the menthol present in peppermint helps reduce the irritation and redness caused by pimples. Its antibacterial and antiviral properties also help kill bacteria that causes pimples. ►Crush some peppermint leaves to extract the juice.-Apply the juice gently on your pimples and leave it for 10 minutes.-Wash your skin with cold water.*you can use peppermint oil, which contains a number of vitamins and essential fatty acids. Take two to three drops of peppermint oil and apply it on your pimples. Massage the oil for a few minutes and then rinse with water.*
9.  Cucumber ⇒ Cucumber is a rich source of potassium and vitamins such as A, C and E. It also has a cooling and soothing effect on the skin.►Cut one or two fresh cucumbers into pieces and soak them in water for about an hour. The nutrients, such as vitamin A, potassium and chlorophyll will transfer to the water.-Strain the water and drink it, or use the water to wash your face.*You can also make a face mask by grinding one cucumber. Apply the mask on your face and allow it to dry for 15 minutes. Wash your skin with warm water. This will help clean dirt and bacteria from your pores.*
10. Papaya ⇒ Papaya fruit has a number of properties that help in the treatment of pimples. It is a good source of the antioxidant vitamin A, and it has enzymes that help reduce inflammation and make your skin soft and smooth. In addition, the exfoliating capability present in papaya will remove dead skin cells and help clear clogged pores.  ►crush raw papaya pieces to extract its juice and apply it over the pimples. 

 

sources:http://www.top10homeremedies.com

Recovery... =/

hi, I'm back and I'm still one hand typer + gamer.. =/

It has been 7 weeks since I broke my wrist, still wearing splint and physiotherapy.

I'm getting better I guess, I never break anything before

(Electrotherapy is used for relaxation of muscle spasms, prevention and retardation of disuse atrophy, increase of local blood circulation)

so this is my first time doing the physiotheraphy.  Thank you to whoever said that physio sucks, you made me scared on my first session of physio you're such a fucking asshole but it turns out pretty good actually. My physiotherapist never forced me to do something that I can't do.

It's really a simple exercise that you can do at home but in my case, I have to go there once a week because my hand still swollen and still shaking. I failed to lift things on my 3rd session,noooo that is not good. my orthopaedist said that time to heal a broken bone usually takes 4 to 6 weeks, sometimes it can take up to 3 months  to heal and I have to be more careful within that time of healing I have to stop doing outdoor activities for awhile such as martial arts, badminton whatever that involve hand so yeah OK... hey, did I mention that my physiotherapist is cute? haha well, yeah she's cute. when the first time I saw her I was like "omg, she's look like mama" yep.. my mama , she's gone now.. umm.. I don't want to talk about it -_-. SO! please do take care of yourself, don't break any parts of your bone because it sucks.

 that's all for now.. Have a nice day ! =)

I'm back! with fracture on my hand O.o

I took a pretty long break from blogging because quite frankly I had nothing to write about but today I wanna start blogging about myself ! so, last of a couple months I have been diagnosed that I have ganglion cyst on my left wrist after I had this small accident at my house. My wrist swollen and has little bump on back of my hand.When my doctor done the x-ray on my hand there's nothing broken or fractured, I was relieved.After doctor gave me wrist splint, the swelling is gone and finally I can do my daily activity.After a few months I stop wearing wrist splint and I thought my wrist healed completely but I was wrong when I stop wearing splint,my wrist started to swollen again and the bump getting bigger and bigger, the color of my hand changed to dark purplish.I was terrified! after a few days, weeks, months I realize if I didn't seek a medical help definitely my hand will be cut off because my hand getting darker. When I go to the clinic the doctor say that my hand darker because my blood vessels have burst, doctor give me some pills but my left hand still darker than my right hand.The second time when I go to the clinic , the doctor says that I have to remove my ganglion and I agreed.Then, I go to hospital to remove my ganglion,the Orthopaedic says that he need an x-ray of my hand for the second time because he thinks that the bump on my back of my hand is not a ganglion cyst.I was pretty shocked, if it's not ganglion cyst then what the hell is that?.When my x-ray is done, doctor called me and he say come closer look at your bone.My bone is fractured! my second metacarpal (point finger) is fractured, I didn't know my hand was fractured if I know I would come earlier.The doctor gave me splint to reduce the swollen first and then after a week we'll see if I need a cast...

sincerely: temp. one hand typer :p

First-time attempt to sketch myself :o

I think they may look kind of odd.

Look at the nose... gosh! haha

Well, I did it just for fun okay...

Don't be afraid to experiment or just doodle.

~peace :) 

#11:- Never Look Back

There are times in life you just have to cut your losses, regroup, move on with your life, and never look back.

 Those who are willing to keep their heads to the sky are those who make it farthest in life, 
because at any given time it is these people who are able to see farthest. 
If you look down, 
if you wallow in depression, anger, sorrow, or any other emotion for too long, 
you must realize you are choosing not to look ahead of where you are. 
Looking down is such a bad thing for us both figuratively, and literally because 
in both senses we are choosing to 
limit our mobility in going forward. 
Think about it. 
Can you walk forward at an even normal pace, without falling over obstacles 
that you wont be able to see until it is too late? 
It is much more difficult to navigate 
throughout our lives with 
our heads pointed down, 
rather than navigating through 
life looking ahead. 
Keep your head up, whether there be rain, or whether there be sunshine.

#10:- There Are Things That We Don't Want To Happen But Have To Accept

There are things that we don't want to happen but have to accept, things we don't want to know but have to learn, and people we can't live without but have to let go.

In life we have to learn that sometimes it is best to let go of certain things that truly aren't for us. 
So many of us fight battles that we know will not 
produce any positive effect, 
and battles that we know won't help us at all to win the wars in life that we are destined to win. 
When we indulge in things that we are not 
supposed to indulge in, when we fight for things that 
God doesn't want for us, 
we do nothing but get farther away from where we are supposed to be in life. 
Don't miss out on a great relationship because you want to hold on to a relationship that will never work. 
Don't miss out on a great opportunity 
because you are scared to let go of a position that leaves you with nothing more than being stable or secure. 
Be fearless in your resolve, learn to let go!

#9:- Whatever You Do, Keep Moving Forward

If you can't fly then run,
 if you can't run then walk, 
if you can't walk then crawl. 
But whatever you do, 
you have to keep moving forward.

In this life there are times that you have to be willing to overcome the odds, 

and not back down to pressure. True winners aren't defined by 

what they do one time; they are defined by what they repeatedly do. 

 Someone who is seen as successful in life is seen in this manner 

because they continued to be successful in life after their first accomplishments. 

How good of a coach are you of yourself? 

Do you find yourself immobile after victories in your life, 

or do you keep going from goal to goal, and from dream to dream? 

Remember that you should never stop dreaming, and going to get these dreams. 

There are things in our lives that we all dream to have 

and until we accomplish these dreams and reach new heights, 

we will never discover what other dreams 

we have inside of our hearts to conquer as well.

#8:- Moving On To The Next Chapter In Your Life

 There comes a day when you realize turning the page is the best feeling in the world, because you realize there is so much more to the book than the page you were stuck on.

Everything must come to an end, but at the same time, 
every ending is nothing more than a new beginning. 
We must remember to remember this, because sometimes it is easily 
apparent that we experience abrupt, 
and painful endings in life as we continue to experience more and more. 
Not every situation in life is easy, especially those that cause unwarranted, 
unwanted, and unexpected change. No one can go back in time, 
and do things over the ways in which they would now to 
make things as they desire for them to be in the present, 
but we can always choose to give ourselves a new start now, 
so that in turn we can make some new endings.
It is time to really live like you are alive, challenge yourself to 
make the best out of the hardest parts of your life. 
Start over now if you need to, today is a fresh page in a new book, just waiting for you to fill it.

#7:- Letting Go Of Someone Special Is Hard

Letting go of someone special is hard but holding on to someone who doesn't even feel the same is much harder.

 Sometimes in our waking lives we are confronted with the decision of either making the best out of a relationship by hoping that the person that we want to really care for us, starts to really care for us, even though making someone love you after a while isn't always the easiest thing to do. If we really want to be with the people that really deserve our love, we have to be willing to protect our hearts from those who will do nothing but drop it if they are given it. You can't make someone love you, or treat you the way you want to be treated, people either will or they wont. You have to love yourself first. Until you can love yourself enough to let go of the people in your life that don't really care, you will continue to find people in your life that just don't seem to care the way that you do.

#6:- Sometimes We Are Only Given A Few Minutes To Be With The One We Love

Sometimes, we are only given a few minutes to be with the one we love, and a thousand hours to spend thinking of them. 

Have you ever had the one you love take their love away from you, so quickly, and so suddenly, that it truly caught you by surprise? 
Dealing with unique situations such as these isn't always easy, but we must learn to 
look in the good in each situation. 
Even when we can no longer be 
with the person we love, 
we have to remember to cherish 
the time that we spent with them. 
What did you learn from them, 
and the situation of your relationship? 
What memories will you take with you, 
and what advice 
will you be able to give yourself when 
it comes to dealing 
with other people we love in our lives. 
Sometimes it will feel as though you miss someone so much more than you ever really loved them, 
and sometimes you will feel alone, 
even when you have people all around. 
Keep thinking positive, 
and allow the hurt that you are
 experience to be your inspiration 
for finding the best way through the situation!

#5:- Laughter Is The Best Medicine

We often hear that "laughter is the best medicine" but if you laugh with no reason you need medicine. Laughter's infectious nature increases happiness to those lucky enough to catch it. So, how does a good chuckle, belly laugh, or all-out giggle-fest trigger healthy effects on your body and improve your overall outlook?

Why Laughter Is The Best Medicine

• Relieves stress ⇒ There's no better way to break tension and ease conflict than by forging a funny connection with your counterparts. Banter's healing benefits instantly inspire hope and elicit and renewed sense of focus. So, lighten the workload or strained relationship with wisecrack.
• Keeps your body healthy ⇒ A heart's hoot boosts immune cells and infection-fighting microbes, protecting you from disease. The endorphins released after a chuckle can temporarily reduce pain. So, let the feel-good chemicals loose! 
• Protects the heart ⇒ Anxiety can really stress out your ticker, so give it a much-needed break with a little innocent repartee. a lengthy laugh increases blood flow, shielding your heart from future cardiovascular problems.
• Fortifies relationships ⇒ Playful communication can work wonders on keeping relationships exciting, fresh, and worry-free. Not only will looking at issues through a humorous lens help resolve differences, it will also help strengthen your bond and keep you connected. What's the best cure for a lover's quarrel? Tickling!
• Create your joy ⇒ You don't have to be a natural-born class clown to see the lighter side of life. Seek out your snickers by watching funny movies, playing with children, wrestling with your pet, or picking up a hilarious hobby.

◈However, within ourselves we harbor the incredible ability to spontaneously strengthen  the immune system, significantly reduce our stress level, and burn calories..all in one swift motion!

sources: http://www.yourtango.com